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Post by Nightjar on Wed Jul 03, 2019 9:12 pm

My iTunes played "My Love" by Macca+Wings and it occurred to me how unbelievably sad it was that Linda died because Paul and her had a completely perfect love, bonded by the deepest affection, attraction and respect.

I guess it's somewhat annoying the way Paul has just stoically and seemingly in typically Macca-esque fashion plodded on in that blithe and cheerful manner he displays after what would've been for most a cataclysmic blow.

But then again, Yoko did the same with John and their relationship was founded on the same qualities of love and respect.

Still, women aren't really publicly allowed to have a separate identity where the death of a partner's concerned...

It arouses hatred (or in Yoko's case, even more).


Anyway, then Shine a Light by The Stones came on and it made me think of my splattered-across-the-train-tracks friend Matthew, whom I think about a great deal these days.

The stupid ****.

Then the next song that came on was the last song I played at my ex's Dad's funeral...



I organised all the music for the service and wake and received thanks = zero, from anyone, including my then-gf.

I guess I must've been drunk and playing sad songs in the dark.

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Post by WhatDoesThisButtonDo? on Wed Jul 03, 2019 9:29 pm

I wish I'd got them to play Laid by James at my father's funeral.

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Post by Nightjar on Wed Jul 03, 2019 10:29 pm

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Post by WhatDoesThisButtonDo? on Wed Jul 03, 2019 10:34 pm

So what songs are we planning to have played at our funerals?

I've not thought about it, as I intending living forever. sad yes

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Post by The Call of the Wendigo on Wed Jul 03, 2019 10:50 pm

Telegraph Road by Dire Straits.

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Post by The Call of the Wendigo on Wed Jul 03, 2019 10:51 pm

It's fourteen minutes long. I'm going to make them all sit there, for fourteen minutes, listening to it. evil2

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Post by Fangirl Three on Thu Jul 04, 2019 7:02 am

The Funeral Party, obviously.
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Post by Nightjar on Thu Jul 04, 2019 7:11 am

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Post by WhatDoesThisButtonDo? on Thu Jul 04, 2019 10:33 pm

I was just looking at Google images for that female drummers thread, and this image popped up, and it made me feel the sadz.

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Post by Nightjar on Tue Jul 09, 2019 8:22 pm

I've been reading about Rita Hayworth.

I knew she'd had a tempestuous and star-crossed life, but I didn't know it was as sad and upsetting as all that.

She's my absolute favourite Golden Age of Hollywood star ever and it's very dispiriting, infuriating and hard to hear how she suffered so much at the hands of horrible, brutish and/or narcissistic men her whole life.

You grind through the biography hoping that some kind of ironically happy Hollywood ending will occur, but of course it never does.

Her story isn't so far removed from Marilyn Monroe in many many respects.

Two women so vivacious and charismatic, brilliant and fragile, with an uncanny combination of high glamour and girl-next-doorness who soared and fell like brilliant stars...

I'm not ashamed to say I did a little weep reading about it all. sad yes

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Post by cosmictanya on Sat Aug 17, 2019 10:42 pm

God, I'm so f***ing bored. Waiting in for someone to finish their emergency duty duties. I've been vastly overcharged for something called 'ProsEcho Falls'. In rose - with a pink lipstick mark for a logo.

I don't know why I didn't go out. Is it too late I wonder? There must be someone out on the town that I vaguely know enough to join without looking desperate. I could be ready by midnight.

I too am a great Marilyn person btw. I've always identified with her. To the extent that I was seriously concerned and depressed about turning 36, and cut back on a few prescription excesses for the run up and months after.

Marilyn and Diana have always been my two celebrities I can understand from the outside in. Both dead at 36 years and 2 months. I suppose I should be pleased to be knocking on the door of 37 really.



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Post by Fangirl Three on Sun Aug 18, 2019 8:20 am

cosmictanya wrote:Sometimes I wake up and feel a distinct 1994ness in the morning air and the light. I think if I could rewind to that year, spring perhaps, no later, I would make so many wiser decisions. Key decisions.

I get that sort of feeling quite often. Last week I was driving up to Manchester on holiday, a fine cool sunny day a bit like September, and I was immediately reminded of going off to university in autumn 1988.

Or sometimes there'll be a yellow-grey afternoon overcast with brighter cracks, and I'll be reminded of Feb-March 1990 when I was immersed in drunken despair in Norwich.
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Post by cosmictanya on Sun Aug 18, 2019 9:02 pm

Goodness, I won't be buying ProsEcho Falls again. I see I went to bed before Rwanda and Bosnia came to mind.

The feeling a different time is a strange sensation. I'm glad it's not just me who feels years past by the quality of the light/temperature etc.
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Post by Nightjar on Sun Aug 18, 2019 9:15 pm

Don't buy anything that's called ShamPane, V-ODKA-N-ToneeQ or LambrEEny either.

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Post by cosmictanya on Sun Sep 01, 2019 10:34 pm

I feel quite upset about Parys Lappers death. I wasn't a huge fan of the Alison Lapper sculpture on the fourth plinth, but regardless of the art I found myself googling extra pictures of her and Parys. I hope he's at peace and she can find some too. Nineteen is such a precious age, all of your options should be achievable. To run out of steam at nineteen is heartbreaking. None of us really appreciate being that age when we are.
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